Here be thoughts that stuck in my brain over the last week. They aren't quite big enough for their own posts but too big for me to ignore, so I'm sharing them here together.

One

I got into a great conversation with a friend about Ann Leckie's Ancillary series. (IT'S AMAZING OMFG GO READ IT IF YOU CAN.) Specifically, we chatted about the characters Breq & Seivarden, & our different take on their genders.

I read both of them as male in my head, or at least as "not female" despite the default pronouns of the dominant culture in the book being she/her, and despite descriptive cues in the text that show Breq is not male. (It's complicated. My research indicates she's agender.)

Seivarden is described w/facial hair and other physical/traditional male characteristics, so I'm sticking with that being a reasonable take, but how do I get from a character being called "she" to a read of "he?"
Is my internalized acceptance of patriarchy that sneaky? Am I that brainwashed?

NOPE. It's the Q. The name Breq is unisex, but (in the US anyway) names that end in a hard K sound are assigned to boys far more often than girls (350+ to <20) so my brain migrates to "boy name" in the absence of overwhelming description. Regardless of pronouns. Otherwise I generally default to reading characters as female/agender -- my mental visuals for most characters in that trilogy are...androgynous like the pyramid aliens in Stargate. Now that's a thing you know about me.

TWO

Presidential elections are different.

I can have nice, rational discussions about politics and principles right up until people start talking about "voting their conscience" by not choosing a candidate or going with any third party candidate in a presidential election.

Think your favorite local libertarian should be school board president? Great! Vote' em in! Want to be represented by the Green Party in your state legislature? Brava! Check that box. Really want representation to take off? Start pushing ranked-choice voting at all levels of office.

But presidential elections are different. The existence of the Electoral College plays merry hob with our already-weighted "most votes wins" system, and THAT means when it comes to presidents, you either pick one of the two leaders, or you might as well vote for whichever of that top two has less support going in.

It's math, and numbers, and I'm not explaining how it happens here, I'm just venting. If all this is totally new to you, I recommend fairvote.com as a good starting point and also all the Schoolhouse Rock America Rock videos. Yes, really.

If we end up with a United States dictator in November, I'll blame very frikking person who didn't vote because their candidate "got cheated," and every joker who thought it'd be hilarious to vote for Kanye because "sure, Trump's bad but Biden's a rapist and they're all equally awful, it doesn't matter who's in charge?"

I'm gonna be permanently pissed off at alla y'all if the US ends sliding into civil war and full-on civic collapse like I wrote into my Restoration series, because that IS what will happen if we let the kleptocrat-in-chief steal our country out from under us.

Vote. Vote like the future depends on it, because it does. It always has. Now 'scuse me, I'm going to chase some kids off my lawn.

Three.

I have spent my whole life being uncomfortable with feminist organizers for reasons I had a hard time pinning down.

Once I hit college I flat-out refused the label because I really didn't see eye to eye with the students who ran those groups there. They called homemakers/stay-at-home-moms traitors to the feminist cause, women who enjoyed their sexuality in the "wrong" ways sluts, and women who didn't want to do it all weak. Basically, they had this weird idea that "equality" meant "we get to decide what's right for ALL women," which meant they got to define whether other women were "feminists." And...uh...NOPE.

I didn't get around to reading a lot of pivotal feminist texts until my 40s & 50s because I was so turned off by the exclusionary snobbery, judginess, purity tests and racist bullshit that floated around the movement like a toxic cloud.

And that pisses me off on the regular, because feminism is critically, objectively important. Societies should guarantee women the same choices and opportunities as men at every level and in every forum. So if someone wants marriage and kids and a career, or one, or the other, if they want to flaunt their sexuality or wrap themselves in chastity, ALL those options should be open. THAT is feminism.

I'm glad that younger & older, wiser, more energetic women than me stuck with it, kept shoving aside the bullshit spewers and are redefining the movement.

TL;DR: I'm really bad at being a nice white lady feminist.

That's all for now. Until later. Next week, probably. Unless I get excited about how well Sharp Edge of Yesterday is coming along and decide to gush about it.